As I’m sat typing this the view from my window is that of a beautiful lough in the emerald isle.
2017 was a year of big changes for me. I sometimes find myself having a moment where Im caught off guard at how different my life is now. The past 6 years in the Middle East brought so much joy. A different life with a husband and a cat, surrounded by stunning desert scenery. Then it all changed.
Deciding to separate from my husband was the biggest decision I’ve ever made in my life. It was a decision that needed to happen. We were both unhappy and the changes that needed to happen for us to be happy were too little too late. Being faced with the reality that we just weren’t compatible was hard, really hard. I am proud though. I’m proud that we decided to make the decision. It would have been cruel to continue, to keep fighting a losing battle and to remain unhappy.
With the decision to separate also came the decision to return to the UK. My home country, that I thought I had waved goodbye too, welcomed me back with open arms. It’s in times of hardship and pain that you can be overwhelmed at the people in your life that truly care. The individuals that go above and beyond to make sure your ok. That you will conquer your sadness.
I owe so much to my sister. We have not been close growing up, far from it in fact. The truth of it is until July I hadn’t seen her in over 8 years. She had married in that time, had a beautiful baby boy and had become the most amazing woman I have ever been around. Without hesitation she offered me a home. Being invited into a house when I had no idea where my life was about to take me brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it. Family means everything.
Now I’m back working within the animal industry (rehabilitating common and grey seals). I feel joyous for the next chapter of my life. I don’t know what this year will bring me. Heck I don’t know what my life will look like tomorrow but I’m happy.
I just had the biggest lesson in my life. Be where you are happy and for me that’s a small village in Northern Ireland.
Love as always,